Hola everyone! I am back from holiday with Jamie and feeling completely refreshed! 😄
Now, I will be posting lots of holiday bits soon, but first, I really wanted to share something. Well, a series of things really. Being away, gave me a lot of time to relax, de-stress and get back to my core. Without all my normal distractions, I’ve had so much time to think – about my life, dreams and ambitions.
This includes a full career change, which is terrifying – and one which I’ll be preparing for whilst I finish my current degree (a girl needs to have options, amirite!?), and a lot of emphasis on my health.
Why am I telling you all this?
Mainly for two reasons.
My blog and my Instagram will probably be changing a bit over the next few months. I hope you will all continue to support me as you already do, and feel that I have to share with you the reasons why!
You’re my digital fam – who else am I going to tell? 😉
So, I have decided I will start the journey into becoming a paramedic.
“If you can dream it, you can achieve it” – Zig Ziglar
I’ve been interested in Science since I was very young. Biology has always been my best – and favourite subject. When I first went into college after GCSE’s I was actually studying with the intent to become a doctor. But love, and life got in the way.
In order to now become a paramedic, I need to improve my physical health, overcome my anxiety and finish my current degree. Don’t worry, I’ll still be posting my daily life, beauty and reviews. But this will likely now be interspersed with fitness foals, progress and dreams. I’ll also be sharing some of the things that helped me to make this decision, and things that hindered me along the way.
Much love to each and every one of you, and let the journey begin!
Do you ever get that feeling, when you have SO much to do, and you have guests coming round in just a couple of hours, and you still have to start cooking, and preparing, and cleaning. But instead, you run a bath, with half a bottle of Radox bubbles, your last Lush bath bomb and take time for yourself. You pick up that book, the one you’re just getting into, and sink down into the bubbles, adrift with stories of other lives…. And then you’re three chapters in, look up from your bubbles and think “Oh shit!”. No? Just me? Well that’s awkward then… 😉
Anyway, today, I wanted to speak to you all about a couple of my most recent reads, that I have really enjoyed (or am currently enjoying!). There’s only two in this blog, as I am terrible at remembering titles! And am really struggling to find books I enjoy at the moment. But here goes…
Before I Fall – Lauren Oliver
“They say to live every day as though it’s your last – but you never actually think it’s going to be. You always think you’ll have more time.
That’s what I thought. But I was wrong.
The thing is, you don’t get to know when it happens.
You don’t remember to tell your family that you love them or – in my case – remember to say goodbye to them at all.
What if, like me, you could live your last day over again? Could you make it perfect? If your whole life flashed before your eyes, would you have any regrets? Are there things you’d want to change?”
This book initially appealed to me because of the concept – reliving your life, second chances at your mistakes, and the instant inability to predict the ending. It was a mystery, without so much of the darkness that so many current books possess. Plus, I love Lauren Olivers Delirium series! Whilst reading this, I could barely put it down, and although it was difficult to get into at the beginning (move past it. It’s worth it, I promise), it became something in which I both loved and hated the characters, and took away some important life lessons.
Treat people with kindness, always. Even if they don’t reciprocate.
Just because you’re different, doesn’t mean you’re worthless.
Everyone is fighting a battle, even if they don’t show it.
I feel as though these are really basic life lessons, but ones I constantly forget and need reminding of. Sometimes it’s difficult to keep being kind, to stick to the path you know you should be on and to seek motivation in world that seems like it’s against you. But you have to stick to it.
After You – Jojo Moyes
“Lou Clark has lots of questions.
Like how it is she’s ended up working in an airport bar, watching other people jet off to new places.
Or why the flat she’s owned for a year still doesn’t feel like home.
Whether her family can ever forgive her for what she did eighteen months ago.
And will she ever get over the love of her life.
What Lou does know for certain is that something has to change/
Then, one night, it does.
But does the stranger on her doorstep hold the answers Lou is searching for – or just more questions?
Close the door and life continues: simple, ordered, sale.
Open it and she risks everything. But Lou once made a promise to life. And if she’s going to keep it, she has to invite them in.”
Now, this book has a very sales-y cover I think. But, I first heard about the prequel to this, through a trailer in the cinema for ‘Me Before You’. And having watched the movie, I felt I really needed to read the books. However, I accidentally forgot I hadn’t read the first book when I picked this one up, and now I’m too hooked to put it down! If you haven’t heard anything about Me Before You, I’ll try not to give too much away. But essentially, Louisa Clark meets Will – a man bound to a wheelchair from an accident, and he changes her perspective on life, love and everything in-between. But not in a superficial cheesy way – in a way that even the reader can take lessons and note from.
I think you’re starting to see a pattern in the kinds of books I like now? If you like this style of book too, I would LOVE to know some recommendations you might have? And what you thought of these two? I really want to sit here and rave about them some more, but it would be cruel to deprive you of some amazing page-turning surprises if you ever pick them up yourself! So, if you would like to know more, leave a comment asking anything and I’ll try my best to answer.
This weekend, I’ve had to do so much housework and I’m actually exhausted. I feel like I need a weekend away from my weekend! But, this morning, I woke up and struck by a little inspiration – decided to do some more unpacking I’d been putting off rather than relaxing in bed (trust me, this was a difficult choice!).
Jamie and I moved in together officially a few months ago. It was a big, trusting step for me and for reasons I’ve always put down to stress, I never completely finished unpacking. But life with him seems so perfect recently, I decided to stop putting it off and get it done. And it was so much fun!
Of course, three months is a long time to go without unpacking. And I’d actually completely forgotten what was inside the bags! I mean, three months is a long time to go without using these things, so they obviously weren’t essential. But, they were amazing and gave me that little sparkly feeling – similar to retail therapy! You know that feeling of getting new, sparkly things to play with – I had three bags worth.
So, what did I find?
Amongst the normal rubbish-y things I got rid off, there were some amazing jewels within these bags. I actually found about 6 tops, a pair of jeans, a scarf and more that all still had tags on. And they are SO cute! I really wish I had a photo of these right now, but they do all need a good wash and iron to tidy them up. I will post a photo of my new clothes haul soon though – promises!
I also found a few cute accessories I’d forgotten I owned, my favourite coat I’d been looking everywhere for and some fun beauty essentials amongst kept memories with Jamie. But, my favourite thing I found? A diary. I’d started this diary on the 29th September of last year, the day before I met Jamie. And there was only one entry (and a quote I’d noted down from Izzy about how brilliant life is). And when I read this entry I felt so proud of myself, and so happy and I actually felt a little teary.
Now, normally I wouldn’t date think of posting an excerpt from my diary online – but the coincidence here and the timing was just too amazing not to share.
This is what it said:
Is it strange to call you diary? It sounds so… teenage. Then again, is teenage really a bad thing? Less responsibility, more fun and more… magic <3!
So, why am I writing? Loneliness, I guess? I recently got out a bad relationship. It was horrible. You don’t realise just how badly you’ve been manipulated and mentally abused until it’s over.
But I won’t let that ruin my hope and my belief in love; in kindness. I won’t believe in a cold and cruel world. It’s not naivety, it’s a choice. If peacefulness, warmth and kindness aren’t protected, they’ll cease to exist.
I wrote this on the 29th September 2016, and the very next day I met Jamie. The kindest, most thoughtful and strengthening man I’ve ever met. And I’ve never felt so strong in myself since I did. I’d like to think this was the universe’s way of confirming what I wrote in a way. In what I was desperately trying to believe and to keep my hope of a happier life after the abuse I’d received within my previous relationship.
I guess I’m posting this here too, not only as a reminder to myself for the next time I’m feeling a little low. But in the hope that maybe, someone might read this and remember that positive thoughts can lead to a happy life.
What inspires you? If you have a similar moment where your positivity has really made an impact in your life, I’d love to hear about it!
So, after my not-so-lovely post yesterday about a horrible fat-shaming incident, I went to work today and found out that today is in fact, National Kindness Day! So I decided there and then to write a blog about all the kindness I’ve experienced, just from one week.
Every day, the bad parts always seem to stand out more than the good. And there’s so many good things we take for granted, without even meaning to! I’m sure there’s actually been a lot more good parts than I can even remember, but I’m going to take this chance to write down all the ones I can. And I’d love to hear what lovely things have been happening to you all! If you don’t want to post them live, please, please feel free to e-mail me and I’d love to post yours anonymously!
So here goes.
This week, I’ve actually had a lot of lovely things happen. Coming home every day to my girls, Aidie and Elena (kittens!) is a highlight of every day for me. Especially when they run up to the door, and even more when they cuddle up to me and Jamie at night to go to sleep. Every morning, Elena acts as an alarm clock, purring and pushing her nose into your face as hard as she can. But, as frustrating as this can be, it’s also rather sweet. And a large display of love. Another small display of kindness is my boyfriend waking up every morning at 7am, even when he’s not at work, just because he knows I like to spend the morning together. This, to me, is an ultimate form of kindness. Plus, there’s no forgetting about the amazing love and support my girl friends provide, on a daily basis.
And a few larger examples, of course…
On Tuesday, I found out the new Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them was out on Blu Ray! Being a fairly big Potterhead, this was big news and amazing! But, was it within budget to buy it this month? No. As I’d already seen the movie in November, it was the sensible thing to do to wait until it had been out a while, and then buy it. And unfortunately, sensibility won.
But, on Wednesday, I got a message from Jamie, and he’d only went out and bought the movie, on Blu Ray. When I asked him why (after the initial screaming, happiness and amazing happy dancing ceased of course), he told me he knew I wanted to see it again, and we had a lovely evening in filled with magic and a little mexican!
And finally, today, on National Kindness Day, my mum gave me an amazing gift. The gift of education. I’m currently at university, studying, and on my placement year. I’m also doing short courses alongside my degree, and have been working on obtaining a separate diploma for two and a half years now. Today, my mum told me she wanted to pay for my course costs for my diploma for this year. And when I argued and said I couldn’t accept it, she insisted. This is amazing to me, to not only know, but be raised by such a selfless and inspirational woman. Who knows she doesn’t have to do something, but does it anyway, out of the kindness of her heart.
Kindness is the language that the deaf can hear, and the blind can see.
– Mark Twain
Now I know that all my examples have been of people doing things for me this week, but there are lots more smaller examples too, every day! Every time someone holds a door open, every time someone stops their car to let you cross the road in the mornings and every time a stranger smiles at you, be it serving you in a shop or asking if you need the elevator. Every one of these moments is a act of kindness that should be recognised and celebrated.
And I’d hope to think I’ve done some kind acts this week, that have made a difference to others. If you’ve done something kind this week, or had anything kind happen to you, please leave a comment or get in touch. I’d love to hear from you.
There’s so much pain in the world, it’s days like today that really do highlight just how important it is to recognise the love too.